Well, what a roller-coaster my emotions have been on these past few weeks. I can’t even begin to describe it. M’s been dealing with some MS related health isssues and has been very discouraged, so I feel like it’s my duty to try to stay “up” for her… and yet, I’m having my own issues coming to terms with my mom getting re-married. Don’t get me wrong, I’m thrilled for her!! I really, truly am! I haven’t seen her happy like this since dad died 4.5 years ago. I want nothing for her but happiness and believe she’s found that in Ron. So, congratulations are certainly in order there!!

Here’s the gallery of photos from the wedding and “reception.”

It’s just been really weird, hard, emotional, etc… to watch her “move on.” Ron is a great guy, but he’s SO VERY different from my dad. Is that important? No… but for some reason, it’s had me thinking. Not really about anything in particular… just thinking. I can’t believe it’s been four and a half years since dad died. I still miss him a lot. It’s gotten easier, but things like this come along and stir up thoughts, questions, memories, and it just makes it so hard sometimes.

Today in church the band did an AMAZING version of MercyMe’s “Homesick.” Which is a song about a friend who’s passed… actually, if I remember the story correctly, it’s the brother-in-law of one of the band members… well, anyhow, the band in church is so damn good. LOL… I have gotten teary in church before just because I’m an emotional sap.. but today it totally made me bawl because I guess I was emotionally “vulnerable,” whatever that means… Here’s the lyrics of the first verse… it just hit me so hard…

You’re in a better place, I’ve heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I’ve rejoiced for you
But the reason why I’m broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

So, I’m spent… emotionally drained. I feel like a sponge that’s been wrung out, or maybe a board that’s been burnt to a crisp, still holding together, but it could fall apart at any second with just a touch… ugh…